I can’t wait
Until the day
I get out of
School.
I can’t wait
Until I start
Another new
Life in the very
Big world.
I can’t wait
Until I graduate
From another school
With a higher education
Of a nursing degree,
So that I can save lives.
I can’t wait until the day I
Get married and
Start another new
Life as a wife with
A wonderful husband.
And then finally,
I can’t wait
Until the day
My child calls
Me and her father
Momma and daddy.
As I sit in my room all day long
Watching TV and downloading songs
Thinking then trying to trust him
I haven’t seen his nice face in so long
Because of an incident that happened in the past
These two years have gone by so fast
Things have happened so quickly, in a blink of an eye
The train needs to slow down
I need a ride to take me away
So I can be free
So things could be how I wish they could be
We can express our love
Without any fuss
It would be so great with just us
To be together whenever we want
To be as free as a bird
That is all I want
Broken-hearted, all night long, she’ll cry
laying there wishing she would die
everyone always said “I know how you feel”
but the truth was her pain was real
Her world was slowly falling apart
everything always hurt, especially her heart
she wanted to so badly for it all to end
because no one cared, not even a friend
she didn’t know what else to do
she had choice one or choice two
she could either end the pain
or go on living with nothing to gain
she picked choice one..
and with a single a shot it was done
it ended just like that
and now, there is no way to turn back.
I can feel you all around me; my mind is spinning from consuming vicodin.
I just want you to lay right next to me, to heal my pains, to make them all go away.
My arms, my foot, my mind and every emotion I have felt.
The time I spend with you is like I am on top of the world, no one can hurt me, and no one can hurt us.
When we are away from each other, I feel it, the dark, pitch black.
It all can affect how I feel, how I am stronger than the rest, it is all diminished.
You’re the only one I can rely on, you’re the only one to protect me, I give you such a responsibility, because if you didn’t have it, I would, and right now I need the support, I am weak, not strong, I cant even get to my bed, I have been sleeping on the couch for three days straight.
I try to get through this for one thing, I will only heal for one reason, and its not me, its not you, its for us, because without you by my side, I don’t know how I can do this, how I can be so strong, so willing, to do my best, you don’t know.
I tried hard not to forget all the fun we had together,
But then I got to thinking I needed to remind myself of others.
In my heart I feel I am losing you each day of the week,
But in my mind all I see is pictures of you and me.
I need to get it in my head that our relationship is over,
You made me cry a couple times and didn’t even give me your shoulder.
Now I see that she’s the one I guess that I will just leave you alone,
But please always remember me as the girl who didn’t want to leave.
When I look at you
My world feels brand new
When I say I “LOVE” you
There’s nothing else I can do
So let me be, you and you be me
So when will I look at me
And say I “LOVE” me
And not you
What will happen?
When that day comes
Will I love me or will I love you
What will happen?
